Today is the last day of my holidays.. and I officially just
taught my first class back for the new year. Wow! What a high :)
I'll be honest - I woke up in my own bed this morning after spending the last couple weeks down the coast, and I felt it in my chest. That tight,
'here we go again' feeling - the feeling of being back at work or more honestly, the feeling of not being on holidays. It was pretty interesting to lie in bed and untangle these thoughts and sensations, rather than just dwelling in them and getting more and more caught up inside them (as is my usual way).
So I went a step further - I pulled myself out of bed, sat tall on the couch and set up my timer for a couple of minutes of morning
meditation. I focussed my awareness on my breath and the tip of my nose, and then I let my attention drift down to where I was feeling tight. It was all in my chest and all in my head! (again, as is the usual place of anxiety for me)
Instead of keeping the 'busy-ness' of those thoughts and feelings going, I brought my awareness
down to my perineum to ground myself. I felt myself physically connected to the earth - away from my mind, and repeated to myself that I was supported. Now seriously, what an amazing support that is - the huge earth, completely holding my body.
And you know what? Right about then, as I was feeling good, my alarm went off and I was a different person.
My world around me hadn't changed, but I had. And that is a great start to the day :)
I then connected with 2 friends I haven't seen in way too long for morning breakky, and played with the brand new bubby of one of them. We talked about love, about loss, about life - just like old times. It was just what I needed on my day-before-work-day.
I then realised I still needed some self-care.So I took myself off to the bookstore and bought
Kris Carr's
Crazy Sexy Diet.
I've been reading
Crazy Sexy Life, Kris's blog, for ages. It's FRIGGIN' AWESOME if you've not dived into it yet. And this book was just what I needed. It literally jumped off the shelf towards me (seriously, it was on the wrong shelf, in the wrong section, but just where I was looking). So of course, I grabbed it, and then went to get a pedicure.
~DAY OF SELF LOVE RIGHT HERE~! Now this book is amazing. I have been unable to put it down all afternoon, and I'm still digesting it. But it's speaking to me. This book speaks right to ME, ohhh I'm excited! So expect a review soon.
But all in all, I am so so happy that what started out as a lil' bit of a shaky day, has now done a complete 360 and it's been an AMAZING day. Again, nothing really changed - I live where I live, my friends are my friends, and I'm still at work. But
I changed. Or rather, my perception.
♥ The friends I needed were right there (and this breakky was organised this morning).
♥ The book my spirit needed was right there (on the wrong shelf, but the oh-so-right shelf!)
♥ The self-nurturing and free seat at the pedicure palace was there.
♥ The beautiful students were there, and I was able to share laughter with them.
It was all there, just when I allowed it to be there. When I allowed my heart to open to all the goodies that are right in front of me. So friends, how about you? As a lot of us are heading back to work - are you seeing the joy that's in your world? Or just the commute and the tiredness and the busy-ness?
Invite joy to your day, my sweet friends. And tell me how you see it :)
Much love,
stella xx